Husband Appreciation Day

1480541_10152049795971047_40224064_nI’ve been feeling so grateful about many things in my life right now, but mostly my husband, so I googled “husband appreciation day” and found out that it’s actually a thing and it’s on April 18! I figured this would be a great time to brag about my amazing husband a little bit. ❤

Samuel treasures every minute with me and is incredibly understanding with my commitment to dance. He sends me gift baskets while I’m out of town for dance and regularly sends me edible arrangements at work on my birthday and our anniversary. After my most recent trip away he picked me up from the airport in dress pants and a nice shirt and brought me home to a clean house. 🙂

I love you Samuel!!!



The First Trimester

It still doesn’t feel real. But it’s still amazing…

cropped-images.jpgI don’t think I believed it was ever going to happen for us. It took four heartbreaking years for our little miracle to happen and when it finally did I was in denial. My period was late. But I waited. My hormones must be messed up, I thought. Five days pass and I decided to take a test.

I peed into the tiny cup, dipped the paper strip in, and waited. Nothing was happening. I probably only waited for about 30 seconds before I figured this test must be defective so I got out another test and dipped it into the same sample. I waited another 30 seconds and decided I couldn’t wait all day for these things so I got into the shower and didn’t think about it any more.

After my shower I opened the shower curtain and there they were. Two little test strips containing potentially life-changing information. I didn’t have my contacts in yet so I got up nice and close to read the results (gross, I know. I just peed on those) and both tests were positive. I think? The test line was lighter than the control line but it was undeniable that there was a second line there. I wasn’t convinced (denial!). I figured I’d wait and test again to see if the line got any darker.

The next day, after some thought, I figured I should probably pick up a digital test from the drug store so I could get an actual “yes” or “no” and not have to decipher colored lines. Samuel wasn’t feeling well and I offered to go to the drug store to pick up anything he needed, but he didn’t need anything. A little while later I asked him again (at least one or two more times) if he needed anything from the drug store. He didn’t need anything, but then he said: “why do you want to go to the drug store so badly?”. So I told him. Yes, I kept that information to myself for an entire day.

I picked up a few things at the drug store including a digital test, then waited until the next morning to make sure I get the most accurate result (I know, I could have tested at any time with those new-fangled digital tests but I was being cautious). The next morning I got up early and used the digital test. While I waited for results I went to let one of the cats into the bathroom with me (they scratch at the bathroom door every day) and Samuel was standing there looking eager to find out what was going on. I looked over at the test and the digital window already said “Pregnant” even though it had been processing for only a few seconds. We just kind of smiled and didn’t say too much because OBVIOUSLY this news hasn’t sunk in for either of us.

Anyways… days and weeks go on, doctor appointments happen, a lot of blood and urine is drawn from my body for testing, decided on prenatal care, saw our little bean’s heart beat flashing on the screen at my first ultrasound, heard our baby’s heartbeat on the fetal doppler at our first midwife visit… all the normal stuff except that I still don’t feel pregnant. Apparently NOT having much for pregnancy symptoms is just as normal as having them. Who knew?

I guess that’s my first trimester! Uneventful. The timing isn’t exactly ideal since I’ll be doing Phase 2 of 8 Elements training at 14 weeks pregnant, and I’ll be 8 1/2 months pregnant when Suhaila comes to Edmonton so that’s obviously not going to happen, and I’ll have a newborn when Devi Mamak is here so I’m not sure about going… but I’m so NOT complaining!!

doula_3.234101330_std-300x296Looking forward to learning a lot in the second trimester! My first challenge is to attempt making my own cloth diapers (any advice is appreciated since I’ve never even seen one in person, lol!). I can’t wait to feel our baby move soon and see my body change and to start putting together the nursery with Samuel. 🙂

It’s Official!

photoIt’s official. The jig is up, the cat is out of the bag, and the beans have beans spilled… Samuel and I are expecting a little bean of our own! Over the last week and a half we have been slowly letting our families and close friends know and we have been so blessed to be getting so much love and support from them. We are incredibly lucky to have such wonderful people in our lives. Like many expectant parents we planned to wait until the end of the first trimester to tell everyone. While it was sometimes REALLY difficult to keep our secret, I found myself being absolutely terrified to actually deliver the news! Samuel wanted to get the entire family together and tell everyone at once, but I insisted on telling people individually. Seemed more private to me and I am a private person, plus we were able to see everyone’s individual reactions.

Some people might be a little surprised with this news: as soon as Samuel and I got engaged people started hounding us about kids so I immediately kiboshed the whole topic because it is completely none of anyone’s business what we are doing (or not doing) with our reproductive organs. It took four years for us to get our miracle so the lie turned out to be the best thing we could have done. I could rant about this but maybe that’s for another post. Anyways, Sam understood and went along with it. But, I digress…

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We wanted to do something fun to tell my mom and sister so Samuel and I painted mugs!  The one for my mom says “Grandma, est. 2015” and my sister’s says “Auntie, est. 2015”. We wrapped them up like gifts and I stuck a copy of my 8 week ultrasound picture inside the mugs just in case there were any questions. 🙂 For everyone else, we made a point of visiting everyone individually so we could tell them in person. Everybody is really happy for us and excited to welcome our little one into the world when he or she gets here.

And the blog… Welcome to my new blog! 😛 I will update it occasional about pregnancy stuff, but I’m really hoping to post things about gardening (I’m just learning!), recipes, a few simple sewing tutorials, baby stuff, and maybe the odd rant. 🙂